1 month and still a cripple.....

So today is 1 month. My foot is still purple and red, no weight-bearing allowed. I'm beyond tired now, this is really getting to be a painful way of life. I'm always doped up, I'm cramping and tired. I love my scooter but it hurts the rest of my body to push it around. The husband is asking me to cook again and its so hard sometimes. I like that I have some independence but its still not where I want to be. Since I can't really see the finish line right now, its hard to be happy bout doing this surgery. I almost wish I would have waited or not even done it..... *sigh*